(Because I always leave so random but interesting videos in my journals: look at the mess with the German and Polish areas. And yes, for those who didn't know it, Spain WAS (not anymore) the only european country that was muslim for 8 centuries in the Middle Ages)
Me, myself and my problem with Doujins TT___TT
How are you? I'm just fed up XD
It said that some psychologists tell some patients, to healing:
- 1st step is admitting you have a problem I do. - 2nd step is identifying the problem I constantly abandon my doujins. - 3rd is learning how to correct it Applying the only effective methodology that worked for me in the past with the only doujins I finished, I mean, the 2 doujins I have for sale.
I don't know if some of you also have this problem: you start some story (drawn or written) and you end up abandoning it... you try to encourage yourself, but it doesn't work because you simply lose the interest.
Maybe I'm not cut out for this sort of comic art. I really enjoy drawing doujins sometimes though, but someway they become to me so tedious when reaching some point.
I think there could be several reasons why some people end up abandoning a comic project:
1. Because they lost the interest in their own story/characters. 2. Because they are not being paid. Believe it or not, when we're talking about a story that you haven't created by yourself, but some customer's one, money is a really good incentive to continue the story, since you are being paid for what you accepted, you created an agreement with your client and yourself. Of course there are artists who could love and get into their customers' story, but it doesn't happen so often. 3. Some artists, as they are realizing about their technique improvement, they think that old pages don't look like new ones anymore. To avoid this problem, there are some artists who use the same drawing method and don't apply their improvements to not showing a collage of styles in the same comic/doujin. But of course, not everybody accepts this situation. Personally, I'm one of those who don't and I feel really frustrated when I find some important changes in my technique. 4. Because some artists simply dislike the results and they think that the effort/result ratio isn't worth it. 5. The lack of time is another disadvantage we must consider as well. There are artists who are so busy with other important stuff and some of them, when reconsidering those old projects, they realize that they've lost the interest in them. 6. Because they regret, change their minds and come up with better ideas for their current story they are working on or for a new one.
How could I solve my problem? = )
I'm a person who needs to see immediate results as soon as I finish a work for some reason. When I draw the lineart, I start with the shading and post the page to share impressions with you all.
OK, that must end, since it doesn't work for me. I decided to "auto-punish" myself. I'm affraid some of you will not like my way to solve it, but I must say it's the only method which has worked for me so far. If you have the same problem than me, you may find this method suitable for you too, who knows. Here you are:
- 1st step: Making ALL pages sketches at once. Until they all are not done, you can't start the following step. - 2nd step: Cleaning ALL pages lineart. You'll notice that your technique improvement is not as radical as before when you made your sketches+lineart+shading page by page. - 3rd step: Shading ALL doujin pages. Again, you'll notice that your techique improvement with shading is less radical and more uniform than before. - 4th step: post your pages online (no matter if you do it gradually or at once) or sell your doujin.
I know myself so well and I think I'd opt for selling my doujin if I see I have all my story in my hands completed and no page posted online.
New doujin project
I can't give so many details about it yet, I think it's better for those who like following my doujins stories, I don't feel like disappointing you (and myself) again and again.
This is why I think that not giving many details about it would be better, since I need to try this method myself for this new doujin project first. The only thing I'll spoil so far is that this doujin will be R18 (adult content) and about my OTP I'll not say the tittle but I must admit that makes me laugh because the doujin tittle has something to do with my problem with doujins Some close friends already know why XD
From now on, I guess that ONLY posting illustrations and short doujin strips would be for me the best option. Long doujins will not be posted online until all pages are not done or directly for sale.
Photo I took this morning about COMBO's doujinshi collection:
I'm so excited because I've received this morning the last doujin to complete all COMBO's doujinshi collection! I feel so lucky, this was so difficult and expensive to get because two of them (the first and third one) were sold out so I'd no choice but to find them in japanese auction websites.
COMBO (also known as Banri / ばんり)is one of my top favourite SasoDei artists.
I adore her style, her stories and imagination. Her style is so original and yet so similar to Kishimoto as well. I must say her style changed sooo so much in the last 2 doujins she made if we compare with the first 3 ones. Still so amazing art.
I'm especially in love with her backgrounds, they are SO extremely amazing, detailed and carefully shaded with the G pen (she rarely uses screentones on them, only if necessary)
For some unknown reason, she closed/abandoned her WEBSITE, but you can find more of her art on her PIXIV account(she rarely updates). I guess she may be into a new fandom or so busy lately.
Here you are the list about the names of the Naruto doujins you see above (from left to right). If you are into this fandom and had the chance (and money) to find them in some auction website, eBay or somewhere else, I totally recommend you:
Crimson Garden R18 I can't give you a DIRECT link to my adult site due to dA policies, but let me give you an easy TIP that will help you to find the link so easily It's the SAME link than the one above, but you only need to replace "kaoyux" with "crimsongarden".
*NOTE: The OLD links WORK TOO! They are the same websites but I'd prefer the new link as the official ones because they are simpler.
Amazing episode IN SOME MANY WAYS!!!! I don't understand why but personally, I haven't found it a filler episode at all! They are talking about an akatsuki member's past. I wish we could see someday another episode about WHY he turned into a human puppet and killed 3rd kazekage!
I'm SO glad that Sasori flash back has been drawn and colored SO GOOD (the characters looked so good and some background scenes looked like a true masterpiece) if we compare it with the non-flash back scenes in the same episode about Chiyo vs. Kankuro fight. I loved Sasori's workshop btw (although it looks so different from the one of the old shippuden episodes)
Ok, I have seen the episode subbed in 2 languages: in english and my native language. Both versions said just the opposite and the subs translations from the japanese audio looked so confusing and lame to me, so please I hope you understand why I'm still confused:
1. THE ENGLISH VERSION:
The english version I saw SEEMS to say that Chiyo was partially guilty of Sasori's friend death because she barely got the poison formula to the standard size and Sasori blindy trusted her (?) and this is why he delivered his friend turned into a puppet to Chiyo and the client who requested Sasori a puppet so they could feel remorse (?).
Question: It it's true that Chiyo was partially guilty for not checking the poison proportions carefully, then WHY did she suspect something about Sasori and what? Was she only afraid of the obsession his grandson had with HUMAN puppets after remembering that Sasori's friend told her that his grandson is so into human puppets? or... did she think that she made a wrong decission of letting Sasori try out that poison on his friend?
The clue to understand what's going on is in minute 11:20 - 13:20 of Naruto Shippuden episode #319
The english dialogues literally say there:
Sasori: I don't like to make people wait. From what I can see, I thought there would be more progress (ok, what kind of progress is Sasori talking about?). Chiyo: Sasori, what are you doing? Sasori: You (CHIYO) barely got it (the poison concentrations I guess) to the standard size. *Chiyo vs. Sasori's friend human puppet fight scene* Sasori: As requested, the model is finished
2. THE OTHER VERSION I WATCHED:
The version that I watched subbed in my native language suggested that Sasori tested out the poisson on his friend DELIBERATELY for his own purposes.
I don't know if he did it because he found his friend annoying, or just to use him as an experiment for his own purposes (to build his firts human puppet), or to make Chiyo guilty about her lack of responsibily when checking the poison concentrations.
Here you are what the dialogues literally say in the other version I watched:
Sasori: I don't like to make people wait, I (SASORI) took all the meassures at a guess and I think it/he (this pronoun in my language is neutral so I don't know if he's talking about the progress of the poison formula or his friend's body) already grew a little bit more. Chiyo: Sasori, what are you doing? Sasori: It's (I guess it's the poison) barely adapted to the standard size, isn't it? *Chiyo vs. Sasori's friend human puppet fight scene* S: As requested, the model is finished.
My doubt is: Did Sasori killed his friend on purpose or was Chiyo partially guilty? If Sasori really killed his friend deliberately, WHY did he do it??? was that kid annoying and clumsy for Sasori or was he jelous about his friend's familiar situation and happiness? afskdfjklsdjfklashdgjsdghasdj
REFERENCES FOR ARTISTS
Since we aleady know more about Sasori's and Chiyo's place, I would like to share here some screenshots I did for those writers and artists who would like to draw some fanart/doujin. I removed with Phosohop Sasori's friend from some backgrounds to make the whole background easier to see. Click on the images to save them in a bigger version if you need it:
Look what you can see in next week's Naruto episode preview:
Will it show something about Sasori's past? Who knows! But it'd be cool! ^^
Next Episode #319 will be called "The Soul Living Inside the Puppet".
Btw the mystery of Sasori's headband seems to be solved. He used to wear it on his forehead. The question now is where he used to wear it when he joined akatsuki (if he took it with himself). I found young Sasori so cute in that screenshot
Hi^^ If you want to see how I draw a doujin page IN REAL TIME, just write "livestream kaoyux" in google and you'll find me broadcasting (due to the mature content (it only shows a breast) I can't give this time a direct link on deviantart, so please, just write in google the "magic" words and you'll find me drawing in real time for sure)
I'm aware that some of you remember that old doujin of mine because of the amount of private notes, comments in deviations, website, youtube and emails I'm STILL receiving from some people who ask me if I'm going to continue this doujin or update new pages.
THE REPLY IS...
「Deidara's Striptease」doujinshi is definitely CANCELLED.
This means I'll not update or submit any new page anymore.
Those are the 3 main reasons that led me to take this decission:
When it comes to art, I must say I feel like an artist who is still so unsatisfied with myself because of the constant changes I usually experiment in my style.
There are a lot of people whose doujin style barely changes (no matter if the style is good or not), but... everytime I see a fanart or a doujin page I drew a few months ago, I clearly observe considerable enough difference as far as style is concerned. It doesn't necessary mean it always has to be a bad thing, since it also means to me that I'm improving someway.
On the other hand, every time I see an old doujin page, I realize there is such important change. My doujinshi technique, use of screentones, panel distribution, brush strokes, g-pen shading and EVEN anatomy are not the same anymore. Without wanting to be so critical with myself, I must admit I've felt ashamed sometimes when I've looked at the past.
This idea really obsesses me to the point of feeling like I shouldn't continue that doujin because the style change is obvious enough to me and I refuse the idea of seeing a "collage" of styles in the SAME doujin. I can assure you I'm not the first and the last artist who has realized how difficult is to continue a doujin with a new/different style though.
This is why I decided to make「TANGIBLE DREAM」and「IMPRUDENCE」pages at once and not one by one, since those doujins are for sale and I want to offer the reader the best feeling. It means I did ALL doujin SKETCHES first, later I cleaned all LINEART and until the lineart in all pages wasn't done, I didn't started the doujinshi shading. Otherwise, my doujinshi would give the reader a so messy impression.
Another reason why I usually end up giving up my old doujins is because of my own personal preferences. With the time, we could change our mind, leanings, ideas and likes as the human beings we are. Sometimes, new preferences, concepts and ideas you start to be curious about gain more importance to the detriment of some old ones that you prefer to move aside. To be honest, I don't really understand and I would never have expected how that「Deidara's Striptease」doujin could get such an attention. I wish my new works could create the same expectations in you with the time as well, really, because I'll be so glad ^^
WHAT DOUJINS AREN'T YOU GOING TO RESUME ANYMORE?
「Why a Puppet?」
「Let Me In」(not sure yet)
I really appreciate all those people who always support me and even like/liked my old style too! You'll always be in my heart because only your support was and is the only thing that encourages me enough to continue with my art and even makes me improve it! Thank you very much for all your support and understanding!
(All photos and videos in this journal belong to me. There is no copyrighted imagery from others)
Hi, I'm back!
Too much time inactive here! I've been out all this time, doing a course in surgery. Although this journal kinda looks like a trip (I love to keep awesome moments), I can assure you that our asses were sitting down on chair for 9 hours/day.
I've learnt a lot. Here you are some video about my first practice in that course (if you don't like medical stuff, please don't watch it). We were remembering how to make sutures, incisions, different kind of aesthetic scar/wound repairs, circumcisions, cyst removals and etc stuff on real skin (but death skin, so it was more difficult and hard to work on than living tissues, since a living person has blood and their skin is softer and much easier to cut and suture)
Two friends of mine at class:
The class was huge and it had a lot of cameras and TVs to see the surgeon teaching us the tecnhiques.
I remember when we were practising a cyst resection, we had to disect below the skin and introduce a little balloon with mustard inside to simulate a cyst with pus inside. It looked FREAKING REAL when that mustard suddenly came out after the disection! Just like in a real operating theatre asdfaddfjasldfjkasdjf Look how it looks, watch this video at minute 00:49 www.youtube.com/watch?v=xAYrH6…
I loved the place I went. The course included the accommodation too. I was in a resort called "Pueblo Indalo", the architecture was so typical of the place and so charming. You was also allowed to bring some friend/partner with you. I'll go there next week again to do another course in Cardiological Emergencies. I can't wait!
Here you are some videos I recorded with my camera about the resort, Mediterranean Sea and some beautiful photos I took:
THE PLACE. RESORT and APARTMENT:
The beach I used to go:
Our lovely lovely swimming pool ^^
My apartment (DEATH at the reception desk guy who gave me the keys of the last floor!!!):
Awesome views from my apartment
My apartment street ^^
Really, the resort was as big as a little village, I'm not joking! All was full of apartments, shops, markets, pools, recreational areas, restaurants and bars = O
The main restaurant! There were like... 5 big self service desks where people served their food. Food quality and amount there is amazing!
The fountain of the main resort square.
Yesss!!! We also had an amazing bowling alley! ^o^
Nap time. My current desktop wallpaper. It's my last fanart to date.
Here you are the original fanart
On the way to my course class ^o^
You can find my class if you cross that door to the right. It was in the resort too, so we didn't need to walk so much ^o^
FOOD and DRINK:
After class in the evening, my honey rum + orange juice + cinamon + coffee seeds long drink and cigarrette ^^
Do you see how awesome this huge marshmallow milk shake looks? Ok, I must say it tasted even better that it looks.
I couldn't help writing this journal due to the amount of notes and comments I've CONSTANLY been receiving during all these years about people asking me for my R-18 CRIMSON GARDEN website link in my submissions and private notes.
Let me at least clarify and explain you publicly the TWO reasons WHY I never reply or provide my R-18 website URL on deviantART:
① DeviantART policies forbid posting outside links to any website which hosts adult/pornographic content. When you create an account on deviantART you are ACCEPTING their policies, no matter if you personally agree or not with some of them. Here you are the official policy about linking to adult websites:
② Because of a fellow artist's bad experience: SO sad, please read this:
I have a friend on deviantART who was reported once by the same douche that asked her BY PRIVATE NOTE the link to her adult website to see her ecchi stuff. YES, people like that EXIST! This person DELIBERATELY asked the link to report my friend to dA admins later, telling them that she was a minor and was provided a link to a website which hosts pornographic content. She considered herself a minor to report, but not to see my friend's hentai and ecchi stuff later... oh... welp
Since I don't trust human beings, I just don't run risks, this is why I can't provide you the direct link on deviantART = /
C O N C L U S I O N: Please, DON'T ask me for the link to my R-18 website, you will receive NO reply. Try the magic words on google
Then, HOW could I find your R-18 Crimson Garden website?
Just type "crimson garden kaoyux" on any browser.
At the beginning it will be a little bit difficult to find it, since I changed my artistic ID and google still finds my website if you write "crimson garden ireal". But please, try to avoid the "ireal" and type "crimson garden kaoyux" or just "crimson garden" to make the browsers system get used to the new artistic ID change.
( +fav this journal if you want to keep the links or check them all later. Too much info )
I've been thinking about a new artistic ID for so many reasons since long ago (I hope you get used to my new name soon ^^)
I just wanted to inform you all that I closed my Crimson Garden website (the Censored version) and re-designed it. The link also changed, so please, if you already saved it in the past add the new one to your bookmars and delete the previous one.
I really love the new Crimson Garden design. It looks clean and simple, you'll see
Also I want to take this opportunity to share a LIST of my other links, my "Networking" links, since I already changed a few accounts too. Keep in mind I'll not use my old Ireal or Ireal70 accounts anymore. They are already INACTIVE.
Please feel free to add me or follow me here:
CRIMSON GARDEN Website
Go and click on the "CLAP" button at the Menu sidebar, please
MY ADULT WEBSITES
Since deviantART policies don't allow users to provide links to websites with adult content, I'll just give you a few tips to make it easier for you to find me in these 2 places:
R-18 CRIMSON GARDEN Website Just google "crimson garden ireal" and you'll find it. I STILL need to update that website to the current changes (oh God, that website is always my pending subject )
Hentai Foundry Just google "hentai foundry Kaojux" and you'll find me. It's a new account. My previous Hentai Foundry one (called Ireal) will be inactive from now on. I already deleted all my pictures there. If you don't find me via google, go to my "Ireal" account and you'll find there a link to my new account ^^
Since Xmas holidays are near, I opted to offer big discounts on my doujinshis!
Take Advantage of these discounts for a Xmas gift! Now save 20% on 「TANGIBLE DREAM」 and 35% on 「IMPRUDENCE」!!! Discounts available UNTIL 25th Decembember only!
Choose. You can buy them from: - This journal by clicking the "Buy Now" buttons - My main devianART page (from the "ONLINE SHOP" custom box on the right) - My Crimson Garden website click "SHOP | オフ活動" in the left sidebar. - If you choose this option, due to the eBay taxes it will cost a little bit more expensive (only 1$ - 1.5 $ more)
「IMPRUDENCE」 - 35% OFF!!!
ALSO ON ◆ PAGES: 25 ◆ SIZE: A4 ◆ PRICE:15 $ (11,95 )9.95 $ (7.6 ) + Shipping Cost to your country ◆ PAIRING: Sasori + Deidara ◆ GENRE: Angst mainly / Romantic (R-13; NO sex scenes/nudity) ◆ SUMMARY: The story focuses on Sasori's thoughts and contradictions while he's visiting Deidara More doujinshi DETAILS
「TANGIBLE DREAM」 - 20% OFF!!!
ALSO ON ◆ PAGES: 15 ◆ SIZE: A4 ◆ PRICE:7.5 $ (5,75 )6 $ (4.6 ) ◆ PAIRING: Sasori + Deidara ◆ GENRE: Romantic (R-15; NO sex scenes/ NO full nudity) ◆ SUMMARY: Sasori wakes Deidara up from a stressful dream (or so Deidara claims). Nothing is out of the ordinary; that is until Sasori volunteers to act out the dream. More doujinshi DETAILS
SAI or Easy Paint Tool SAI (ペイントツールSAI) is a lightweight raster graphics editor and painting software for Microsoft Windows developed and published by SYSTEMAX Software.
The painting application is available in both Japanese, and an official English translation. An unofficial fanmade translation for the software also exists. It can be purchased directly through the developers' website,and purchases through PayPal are now also accepted in addition to the BitCash and TelecomCredit payment systems that have been available for Japanese users.
Paint Tool SAI is available on Microsoft Windows 98, Me, 2000, XP, Vista, 7 and 8.
I would like to take this opportunity to feature and promote a few tutorials that I've found and considered to date for Paint Tool SAI users around deviantART community! ^^ Take a look at a few of the incredible submissions below, I hope you find them handy, inspirational and beneficial for your art creation:
I would like to take this opportunity to pay tribute to SASORI, one of my favourite Naruto characters, featuring and promoting the best Sasori fanart around deviantART that I've found and considered to date
WHO IS SASORI?
Akasuna No Sasori was an S-rank missing-ninja from Sunagakure's Puppet Brigade and a member of Akatsuki, a criminal organization.
Sasori grew up in a sad and lonely environment due to the absence of parental love. His mother and father were killed by Sakumo Hatake (Kakashi's father) in battle, leaving him in the care of his grandmother, Chiyo. She introduced her grandson to the art of puppetry. He eventually created puppets in the likeness of his parents, but when he realised that the puppets couldn't give him the actual love that he desired, he became aloof and nihilistic.
This led to his maintaining little regard for human life. However, motivated by his desire to make works that last forever, Sasori began experimenting to create puppets out of people. Twenty years before his introduction in the series, he left Sunagakure, his village.
Sasori's ambition was to become an exquisite piece of art himself by turning his body into one of his own puppet works, because he thought art is something wonderful that's left long into the future. He transferred his heart into this puppet body to increase his own offensive capabilities and prolong his life.
:lulletpurple: A couple of years before the actual story, he secretly kidnapped the Third Kazekage and made him into one of his human puppets. Some time after leaving his village, Sasori joined the Akatsuki organization. He was partnered with Orochimaru (who left the Akatsuki after his failed attempt to take Itachi Uchiha's body) and later, Deidara. Orochimaru and Sasori shared their desire of an everlasting existence. However, Deidara and Sasori had conflicting views on art, and they frequently argued about their differing perspectives.
Here you have a selection of our best deviants' Sasori tributes:
Cosplay and doll art
Since I also love and draw this character, I'm going to contribute a few of my favourite works that represent him the best:
That's all, people! Without further ado, I hope you will enjoy these features!